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I'm bullshit and everything I do is bullshit





When I think I'm totally full of shit....

I have these moments where I think I'm full of shit & everything I do is full of shit...

Where nothing seems to have any purpose, where I question myself, & question everything that people pay me for

Where I feel like a total fraud.

'I'm just making shit up, walking around blind, I don't fucking know anything'

I for sure don't have my shit all together.

The last few weeks I've noticed how attached I am to my body looking a certain way, and right now it's not looking the way I expect it to, I haven't been surrendering and I haven't been giving myself self-love.

A few days ago I bought running shoes on sale, not because they were my favourite, but because they were on sale! I mean this is the shit I teach people NOT to do.

I stayed up until 11:30pm watching Dynasty. I knew it was not soul-aligned, but I didn't give a fuck, I did it anyway and woke up feeling hungover.

I hung out with new friends recently and felt so self-conscious that I literally said next to nothing for hours because I spent the whole time thinking about something intelligent or funny to say.

I worry that it's all going to fall apart......particularly because I'm a fraud, everyone will find out that I have no idea what I'm talking about........no one will want to work with me anymore & no one will take any of my courses.........my finance career will be burnt.........I'll have to hide out on an eco-farm planting silverbeet wearing overalls.

Then I remember that it's ok feel like I'm total bullshit...

That I show up anyway and keep sharing the message, even when I'm not even sure what the message is...

I put my bullshit and humanness aside and get on with it.

I accept it, I don't try and fix it, I also don't react on it.

I create the space and do the shit I know I need to do in this moment irrespectively of if I want to crawl into a coconut and hide...

I don't beat myself up for having moments where I'm in scarcity, where I feel ugly, where I feel stupid.

Sometimes I don't practice what I preach! While 99% of the time I do, it's that 1% that has the ability to derail most, not because of the thing itself but because of the shame & regret & the bullshit meter that carves away the confidence to show up anyway.

And this is why I think I more successful than most in this space.....whatever this space is, I fucking hate the term life coaching/personal development, it sounds so fucking fluffy and like such bullshit, perhaps too closely reminding me of the fraud I feel like I sometimes am...

And in fact it's these very human moments that turns into message ....

Where I call myself out on my own bullshit, of calling everything bullshit, and I fucking do it anyway...

That above all the feelings, all the emotions, there is clarity, even if the clarity is that there is no clarity, is still fucking clarity...

There is always a message, there is always direction, even if it means talking directly to the fears, bringing them up, airing them out....

Then you'll see that there is actually nothing behind them, that speaking the truth, the real truth that you're afraid will make you look unprofessional, imperfect, unintelligent....

That in fact speaking to these layers most are afraid to even look at allows you to get deeper towards the core of who you are..

When you are closer to who you are it's clearer, faster, more powerful. The punches you throw are more precise, more impactful.

Your mission, if you choose to accept it, is....

To show the bullshit that it's bullshit....

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